My Divine Visitation

I'll begin by relating what I believe incurred this phenomenal experience.

In the late 90s a close family member was murdered. That tragic event devastated my family and I. The trauma left me badly shaken, frequently fearful, extremely angry, and at times I was loose cannon. Emotionally and spiritually, I'd fallen into a very dark place.

Months later, one bitter cold night, I drove my old car to the corner gas station. I parked by the pumps and got out. The car was in bad shape, and somehow the transmission slipped into drive as I was walking toward the store. I turned back and saw the car slowly idling its way across the lot. As I dashed after it, I slipped on icy gravel and crashed down hard on my knees. Crippled by pain, I was unable to stand, and could only watch helplessly as my car rolled across the lot and rammed into a shiny new Jaguar. Thankfully no one was injured, and I hobbled on over.

In my dark and frantic frame of mind, I was expecting the worst. I thought surely when the owner came out from the store, he'd assault me, and I almost grabbed a pistol in the glove compartment. Soon the Jag owner emerged. He was a tall well dressed gent.
I explained what happened and apologized. To my surprise and relief, instead of flying into a rage, he just shrugged and calmly said; "Don't worry. It's only money".

To this day, his words still ring in my ears.

My runaway car was a rather minor incident, not a big ordeal. But for some reason it triggered something in me. I felt completely overwhelmed. I'd had all I could take. Between my daily personal struggles, my uncle's murder and the anguish pent up inside...
I was coming unglued.

I climbed back in my car and solemnly drove home with a blank stare, and I started to pray.
Prior to this event, I'd never been a particularly spiritual or religious person. I'd had paranormal experiences, sufficient enough to believe a metaphysical dimension exists, but I seldom prayed and I had little or no faith some entity or force called "god" genuinely exists.

Be that as it may, I began praying my heart and soul out. Essentially I said; "Lord, if you exist... and if you can hear me... I can't do this anymore. I can no longer endure so much stress and pain. I feel terribly lost and alone.
I am begging you god, to not forget me. Please reach out to me, lend me your strength, help me carry this crushing weight. I can not bear this burden alone anymore."

In that moment I became as humble as any human can possibly be. Like a little lost child crying out to a parent.
I wholly and unconditionally surrended my body, mind and soul, my life, my entire existence, directly to god -- Asking only that he not abandon me.

Exhausted, and now late in the evening, I collapsed on my bed and fell fast asleep.
Something truly awesome occurred...

I entered a square chamber, with smooth stone walls and flooring, and the ceiling appeared open to the heavens. The walls were covered with straight, narrow, level and angular lines, intricate geometric patterns inscribed into the stone surfaces, and these lines were inlaid with stunning gold, silver, and precious stone. Emerald, ruby, sapphire...

The lines didn't form any recognizable image or symbols, and although each wall's design varied, the lines on all 4 walls interconnected, forming a 360 degree pattern, which combined as a whole, felt precisely symmetrical, aligned, balanced, in perfect harmony.

The walls felt alive, not cold inanimate stone, and they were softly humming, which was quite comforting. Their soothing vibrations resonated throughout my being, and the pattern felt like an ancient mathematical language, silently communicating with me, warmly welcoming me inside. After pausing briefly to behold the splendid designs, I crossed the chamber and passed through an open doorway, entering a second chamber beyond.

The second chamber was was almost identical to the first, to my best recollection. More geometric lines inlaid with stunning gem stone and precious metals. If there were anything significantly different between the chambers or patterns, either I didn't notice or I can't recall what it was. And so many years later, I don't know if there were actually three chambers in total, but I definitely passed through at least two.
After crossing these chambers, or courtyards of sorts, I entered an area that is difficult to describe.

Crystal Corridor

This area had no walls, ceiling, or clearly discernable floor. It was a dark, seemingly limitless space, with distant stars all around.
It felt almost as though I'd stepped straight out into the galaxy. However I didn't feel as though I were floating weightlessly. I felt stable, grounded, and I continued forward, down a straight path or bridge of some kind.

Both sides of this path were lined with single rows of crystalline objects, perhaps a dozen or more. They were all relatively similar in shape and size. Large, tall, oblong, multi-faceted, and composed of clear flawless crystal. All were suspended in air, not mounted or set on the ground, and they were softly glowing, glistening with sparkling white light.

I approached one of the crystals for a closer look, and when I did I saw myriad images of myself in every facet. There were thousands of me's in and throughout. In that moment I felt something I've never felt before, either in dreams or waking reality.
I didn't feel as though I were outside, separate, looking inside the crystal, and seeing my reflections on the surface. Instead I felt a joyful unity, as though I were the crystal, and the crystal were me. All sense of separation between subject and object vanished. My consciousness merged with the crystal, and we became a singular entity.

I continued onward past these crystal rows, and entered what I suppose was the temple's inner sanctum.

Supreme Swans

This area was a long large rectangular room, with white marble walls and floor. The decor was rather austere. No lavish art, sculptures or other furnishings, and no symbols or inscriptions I can recall.
Ahead of me lay a long narrow pool, filled with shimmering, luminous, crystal clear water. The pool was raised a few feet above the floor, with stone siding. It seemed to stretch off into infinity. There may have been a gateway or portal of some sort at the far end, but all I can remember is a darkness beyond, a depthless obscurity, as if the fountain or pool had no point of origin.

I approached the edge and gazed into the pool. The sparkling water felt like living energy, radiating a life-giving force.
For a moment all was still, then out of the dark distance ... two Mute swan appeared.

Side by side, the pair gracefully glided across the water's surface in my direction. As they approached, they grew in size, becoming larger than an ostrich, taller than me.

When they'd reached the end of the fountain, almost close enough to touch, in unison both swan rose, raised their heads and arched their great wings high, then swept their wings down across the water's surface directly toward me.

I was showered with brilliant burst of white light, which swept through my soul!

And within this divine light, came an incredible sensation I can barely describe.
Immaculate love, joy, peace, compassion, understanding, unity and harmony ~ all rolled into one.
I felt wholly understood, accepted and embraced. These angelic swan understood every part of me, intimately. They could see straight into the core of my soul ... and they loved me dearly.

This was divine, pure, unconditional and eternal love, sent straight from God's heart. And with this blessed love, came unbridled bliss, mercy, compassion, understanding, acceptance, total serenity, and I felt a wonderful sense of belonging, of unity and harmony with the swans and with god, with all life, all existence, the entire cosmos and beyond.

This amazing feeling lasted only a few moments ... and then I found myself exiting the temple, or perhaps gently ushered out, and "waking" on my bed. I was so overcome with joy I wept and praised god for this wonderful gift.

Words do no justice. This was a love so pure and powerful, it would bring even the cruelest, most brutish of beasts to their knees, weeping and praising our Lord. Over a quarter century later, just to remember that feeling still gives me goosebumps.

There was one final part to my vision, or visitation, but I'm not sure how relevant it is. When I exited the temple, there were long descending steps. On the steps lay two large sleeping dogs. I felt uneasy and cautiously stepped over them, so as not to disturb their rest and maybe be bitten. That's where the experience fully concluded.

Was this an important message or warning?

So that is my story, and my blessed gift from God. He heard my prayers and did not abandon me, and that awesome experience altered the course of my life. I let go of my anger and fear. Had I not done so, who knows what might have happened. In my dark troubled state of mind, I might have harmed an innocent person whom I felt was a threat.

For months after I felt as though I were glowing with god's love and light. My eye color even seemed to change in hue, to a deeper clearer blue.

For discussion sake, there is more I'd like to add, and I'll do so in time.
For example; Why did these angels, deities, or the holy spirit, or god manifest as a pair of Mute swan?
I've scoured the web and various spiritual texts, with limited results. Swan or Hamsa references are at least found in Hindu literature, philosophy, and yoga. Perhaps therein lies the answer I seek.
There is plenty of swan folklore, mythology and fairy tales spanning centuries, but my focus is on how swan may directly pertain to me personally, and my specific experience.

At the page bottom is a link to interesting spiritually related swan info I've gathered, but none of it speaks about a heavenly temple with swan angels of love and light. However it does provide insight worthy of contemplation and further investigation. I'll keep digging and adding whatever I discover.

For those who are suffering... If you're feeling lost or alone... if you're in a very dark place...
I pray the swan angels will visit you too, and shower you with boundless love and light, mercy, compassion, peace, joy and harmony.

There is no special or secret technique I can say will summon the swans, or transport your soul to a celestial temple.
What worked for me was deep heartfelt prayer and total surrender, which you can do wherever you are, whenever you're ready.
No intermediary necessary. Simply surrender directly to God in the highest. Close your eyes and let go.

Even if you don't believe in a metaphysical dimension, or angels, god, or a higher cosmic intelligence ... it can't hurt to try!

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